I have taken a long break from blogging. For a variety of reasons. One of those reasons is because there are not enough hours in the day to get all the things done that I need to. But I am on spring break this week & have some down time to think about other things besides teaching.Despite being extremely busy with my teaching career, I continue to attend the Addiction Recovery Program support meetings each Wednesday night. I am in awe with the sisters that attend & share their personal experiences. Their testimonies & faith, while in the midst of extremely difficult situations, are a strength to me.
I really like this picture at the top of this post. I printed it on colored paper & posted it in my bedroom so that I can see it every day. It reminds me to be proud of how far I have come in the past year. I have a long way to go ... a lifetime actually ... and I hope I can stay on the path that will lead me to an eternal life of joy.
I am in a continual struggle between good & evil, light & darkness, joy & pain, peace & depression, life & death, sobriety & addiction, and other words that don't need to be added to this blog. I really do feel like there are monsters in my head sometimes. The addiction component of my life is extremely challenging, but what is even more challenging to me is my emotional health (my mind, heart & soul). I am thankful for the Addiction Recovery Program that brings a spiritual foundation, guidance & structure into my life journey. Having Christ as the center of this program reminds me where my focus should be.
I am slowly learning to believe in myself. To trust myself. And to trust the Savior. I have a long way to go, but I am far from where I used to be.
